Everyone has the right to satisfaction. To peace. To believe in something.
We grow up with the lessons we learned from teachers, parents, friends and enemies. It's our job to make something of it. If you're happy it's because you want to be. Same with being miserable or unhappy. Granted there are those that need further help, but kudos to those who can admit and seek the help they need.
Most of us have been down a dark road enough times to know what we shouldn't take for granted and what we can live without.
I feel in my heart that a simple smile at a stranger, a quick hello to your neighbor or striking up a conversation with someone who always tries to make small talk can make a difference. The small things are usually the best. Baby steps towards a better feeling you never hurt anyone.
There are going to be people out there that feed on the weak, the saddened, the fearful and the loners. Those people get their satisfaction from that. It's sad. But who am I to judge? I don't know what's happened to them, I don't know if they were ever loved enough. But what I do know, that experiencing negativity in my own life never got me anywhere. It never improved my confidence nor did it ever help me with relationships. Only until I realized, I needed to get my act together first before putting on a show.
Positive energy will bring good things. Life will put you through tests (I personally believe God is responsible for that) but life really isn't meant to be easy peasy. But you have to put that into action, if you don't believe you can turn things around; you have to know that it will be a hard life. It will be a struggle.
My hearts been broken so many times, I could of cried all day, became depressed or killed myself. But what good would all that do? My kids have been away from me for long periods of time, I could of been a bitch or complain to everyone. But would that make me a better mom? No. I lost friends over stupid things, did I try and fix things? Yes. Is there only so much you can do? Damn right!
I'm 28 years old, I've lived a life enough to be 58. I know. It's sad. But not to me. I have embraced my mistakes, my failures and learned to adjust and resolve. Do I still get annoyed and upset, duh! I'm not perfect! Just my shoes...
But what I mean people, is that you need to get off that couch! Out of your house! And get some fresh air! People! People! We need your money! Oops, sorry! Got all Little Rascals on you!
Honestly, it's 2013 and we are making the same mistakes! Haven't we as a society learned enough to know! I mean, we go to school, we go to college, you stay single or get married you have kids. They do the same. All the same emotions are there. Except now they try and convince us that a little medicine will help make us better... Man, I could go on but I'm tired. I also hate typing on an iPad.
Tonight, someone asked me to "go fuck yourself", I took that as an opportunity for entertainment. I'm bad at come backs and arguing. I just am. The best I got was trying to wish someone a flat tire. Lame, right! But boy, this person seriously loved to dispute. Who am I to stop her. She also referred I was new to the Internet. I didn't correct her though because my life is consumed by reality. So sometimes I am new to the Internet ;) I mean I have only been blogging since 2009. What do I know.
Alright chicks and dicks, I'm signing off and wishing everyone a safe weekend!
Peace!
Saturday, August 10, 2013
Sunday, May 19, 2013
A Life Worth Fighting For
This morning I read a terrible post on Facebook by my younger brother. He mentioned he had the worst day and that he was called "fag" several times at work by customers. The first emotion that hit me was anger, then sadness. I think its natural to want to be there and defend someone you love when they are in those types if situations. And when you can't, it hurts.
If you know me and my family well, you know my younger brother is gay; my parents are very religious and that we all love each other. When my brother told us he was gay, it was a surprise but wasn't at the same time. We accepted him, there wasn't a question or doubt. We love him, our Lord gave us this person; he brought him into our lives.
Its so true when you hear the phrase "born this way". This is the solid reason any homosexual person can give you. As children no one kneels by there bedside and prays to be a homosexual. No one prays to be made this way, you are just born that way. You are. Its in your blood, bones and soul. No one chooses to be this way. And the way people, the world react is just appalling to me. The world is so focused on gay marriage and how they can raise children. Have we lost all sight?
What do we call all the bad mothers, fathers, sex traffickers, molesters, kidnappers, murderers out there? They weren't born that way, they chose to be that way. They allowed themselves to be taken by the dark side, and they had a choice. I know there are mentally ill people out there that commit terrible crimes, but that is not the group I am talking about. I am talking about the women who know they shouldn't have children and do. The men who chose to get a women pregnant and know they will not stick around. The groups out there that think its okay to enslave a child into sex trafficking. A person who feels touching a child in sexual ways is okay. A person who kidnaps someone to remove them from society and think there is no wrong in that. The people who don't have the right to end someone's life. What about those people? WHY ARE WE NOT FOCUSING ON THESE PEOPLE?????? WHY ARE WE FOCUSING ON GAY MEN AND WOMEN WHO WANT TO LIVE PEACEFUL LIFE'S????
Sure those people make headlines, sure you talk about it amongst your peers. But then the topic fades until the next terrible thing happens. But giving gay men and women any rights is milk in everyone's coffee. I can't remember the last time I read, heard or saw something in the news about a soulless act committed by a gay person. I just can't. Can you? Oh wait, yes I can. I remember it was only a few months ago that gay men and women wanted to marry because they loved each other and wanted to dedicate their lives to one another and it did make headline news. In fact, people were so outraged that they started rioting... I guess loving someone, really is a crime.
I don't give a fuck who you are, I don't care where you came from, I don't care what race you are - but if you think you have been giving a life that only our Lord leads to be able to call ANYONE ANY kind of hurtful name; you truly have been giving a life that only the devil leads.
You are given one life, one heart, one soul. After that, your actions will guide you to where you belong once you've passed.
Remember that the gay man and women who live amongst us are symbols of love and peace. And to that, this is all they seek.
Our race is so corrupted that the real focus has been jaded and the real problems are becoming okay in our society. I am a daughter, a mother, a friend, a sister and this is what I see through my eyes. My own opinion. My own words.
Life will never makes sense, don't kill yourself trying to make sense of it.
A prayer for those who were born the way you are:
DEAR LORD,
I PRAY FOR STRENGTH,
AS OTHERS ARE AGAINST ME.
DIFFERENT I AM,
AS OTHERS CAUSE PAIN.
I AM GAY,
MY BELIEFS IN YOU,
WILL NEVER STRAY.
I PRAY FOR OUR WORLD,
AS OTHERS ARE AGAINST YOU.
DIFFERENT YOU ARE NOT,
AS OTHERS SEEM TO BE.
I AM GAY,
MY BELIEFS IN YOU,
WILL NEVER STRAY.
If you know me and my family well, you know my younger brother is gay; my parents are very religious and that we all love each other. When my brother told us he was gay, it was a surprise but wasn't at the same time. We accepted him, there wasn't a question or doubt. We love him, our Lord gave us this person; he brought him into our lives.
Its so true when you hear the phrase "born this way". This is the solid reason any homosexual person can give you. As children no one kneels by there bedside and prays to be a homosexual. No one prays to be made this way, you are just born that way. You are. Its in your blood, bones and soul. No one chooses to be this way. And the way people, the world react is just appalling to me. The world is so focused on gay marriage and how they can raise children. Have we lost all sight?
What do we call all the bad mothers, fathers, sex traffickers, molesters, kidnappers, murderers out there? They weren't born that way, they chose to be that way. They allowed themselves to be taken by the dark side, and they had a choice. I know there are mentally ill people out there that commit terrible crimes, but that is not the group I am talking about. I am talking about the women who know they shouldn't have children and do. The men who chose to get a women pregnant and know they will not stick around. The groups out there that think its okay to enslave a child into sex trafficking. A person who feels touching a child in sexual ways is okay. A person who kidnaps someone to remove them from society and think there is no wrong in that. The people who don't have the right to end someone's life. What about those people? WHY ARE WE NOT FOCUSING ON THESE PEOPLE?????? WHY ARE WE FOCUSING ON GAY MEN AND WOMEN WHO WANT TO LIVE PEACEFUL LIFE'S????
Sure those people make headlines, sure you talk about it amongst your peers. But then the topic fades until the next terrible thing happens. But giving gay men and women any rights is milk in everyone's coffee. I can't remember the last time I read, heard or saw something in the news about a soulless act committed by a gay person. I just can't. Can you? Oh wait, yes I can. I remember it was only a few months ago that gay men and women wanted to marry because they loved each other and wanted to dedicate their lives to one another and it did make headline news. In fact, people were so outraged that they started rioting... I guess loving someone, really is a crime.
I don't give a fuck who you are, I don't care where you came from, I don't care what race you are - but if you think you have been giving a life that only our Lord leads to be able to call ANYONE ANY kind of hurtful name; you truly have been giving a life that only the devil leads.
You are given one life, one heart, one soul. After that, your actions will guide you to where you belong once you've passed.
Remember that the gay man and women who live amongst us are symbols of love and peace. And to that, this is all they seek.
Our race is so corrupted that the real focus has been jaded and the real problems are becoming okay in our society. I am a daughter, a mother, a friend, a sister and this is what I see through my eyes. My own opinion. My own words.
Life will never makes sense, don't kill yourself trying to make sense of it.
A prayer for those who were born the way you are:
DEAR LORD,
I PRAY FOR STRENGTH,
AS OTHERS ARE AGAINST ME.
DIFFERENT I AM,
AS OTHERS CAUSE PAIN.
I AM GAY,
MY BELIEFS IN YOU,
WILL NEVER STRAY.
I PRAY FOR OUR WORLD,
AS OTHERS ARE AGAINST YOU.
DIFFERENT YOU ARE NOT,
AS OTHERS SEEM TO BE.
I AM GAY,
MY BELIEFS IN YOU,
WILL NEVER STRAY.
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
Serendipity
My boyfriend Fred is a very extravagant man, he is very interested in luxory and will pull all the stops for any special moment. He loves to travel and I have found myself by his side every time. He is truly a man of his word and will do anything to make my dreams come true. Literally. Every comment that I mentioned the phrase 'my dream is too..." and pretty much come true. I wanted to see NYC, Paris and guess what - he made it all happen. I am extremely lucky.
So here is how he began to plan this surprise trip that had surprises along the way.
Surprise #1 Fred and I are sitting on our couch watching the tree lighting in Rockefeller center and I begin to look up the weather for New Orleans to see how heavy of a jacket I will need. Fred asks me to look up the weather for NYC and I say to him, who cares we are not traveling there. WELL, his response, you should care we are going next week! At this point I am speechless and I give him this look of excitement and confusion, hahaha! He starts to explain why we are going and its going to be my Christmas present that will include a shopping spree :).
Surprise #2 One week later, the night before our flight to NYC - Fred asks me if his blue jeans are okay to wear on the flight and I said of course they are silly! He says, well they are not good enough for first class! I pretty much almost shit my pants! I am jumping around and shouting with excitement and jumping on him asking if he is joking, haha! He wasn't joking and we flew first class which was so great because I s felt like a princess.
Surprise #3 We have a driver picking us up from the airport, and I notice that we are driving into lower Manhattan. We pull up to the Trump Soho!!! I am not convinced this is our hotel but then we walk in and check in and then we are standing in our amazing room. I was ashamed to think we would stay any where knowing how Fred does things :).
Surprise #4 The next morning we wake up, head out to the Cupping Room Cafe to grab some grub before heading out to 5th avenue. Breakfast was great and we heading out, we went to tons of different stores, got some good things and headed back to the hotel to get ready for dinner. So obviously I needed like an hour to get dressed, Fred tells me he doesn't feel good so he takes a nap. Once he is up and ready he heads down stairs to make sure our car is here. I am thinking, why does he need to go downstairs, why can't he call? I didn't have time to ask questions, I was concerned with my stupid false eye lashes and wondering why it wasn't staying on, grrr! SO I toss that shit and hear Fred come up like 15 minutes later. I said, why were you down there so long, apparently there was traffic and other shit going on. Finally we head down stairs and Fred said a white car is picking us up and I don't see a white car. We keep walking and we come up to a Chrysler 300 black limo and the driver decides to say, Hi Fred! They shake hands, I am like WTF and he opens the door and says he is ready to go. I ask Fred, is this for us?? As I am giggling because all this is so amazing I can't believe it was real.
Surprise #5 We are heading out to Rockefeller center to check out the tree. The streets are blocked, our driver can't get through so he drops us off and we walk a few blocks. We make a quick turn and there is the tree! Full of magic and life and just being able to be there with my love and watch everyone around us was awesome. He starts to mumble sweet things as to how he is going to start doing things from now. We make this joke of how he really does do so much and then says, 'but I haven't done anything yet' and so I was really happy to hear him say that for himself lol :). Then he begins to ask me what today was, I responded with the normal answer and said it was Saturday. He says, no, what's the date. I say its December 8th, I am thinking I missed something because he never asks me things like this in this type of setting. Then he says, 'yes today is December 8th, many many years ago my grandfather got down on his knee and asked my grandmother to marry him and I would like to do the same and ask you to make me the luckiest man', he got on one knee and asked if I would marry him. And of course I said YES! Omg it was amazing, a beautiful feeling, nothing that I was ever capable of feeling before. Thousands of people cheered and clapped for us, it really was magically. He then introduces to me Conrad, his buddy ol pal who has been following us and snapping pictures of the entire thing! AWESOME! Conrad you are the best! Oh and another thing, Fred bought a new camera and shipped it to Conrad to use for this moment and we got to take it home with us!
Surprise #6 We venture on to find our driver and his elegant limo, we head out to dinner, but first we make a pit stop to (drum roll please) Georgetown Cupcakes!!!!! Oh tthe cupcakes were yummy! Okay so then we proceeded to dinner and as we pull up, Fred tells me how famous this place is because the owner is a chef on the cooking channel. Lidia Bastianich is the owners of Becco - FYI. We go inside to let the hostes know we are her and she says 'oh, you're party is waiting outside'. I'm like what! Who is here! Well, Fred's family drove in from Jersey to spend this day with us! I was way too excited to see everyone! The his mom walks out (she lives in AZ) - he flew her out here AND THEN my brother strolls out and I lost it. I cried like a baby, I couldn't believe my brother was there and that Fred has planned this for so long. It was his dream to visit NYC, so there were 2 dreams in the making.
I am truly and excited, blessed, happy, grateful women. I have the 2 funniest kids and a true man who is not only the peace I feel in my heart but the joy I feel through out the day. There are lots of men out there that can make you happy and say all the right things. But there isn't many who can contribute to the joy and peace in your life.
Everything I have been through, everyone one I have known has brought me to this moment and us together. Thank you to everyone who was a part of it to make that day so spectacular!
Hugs!
So here is how he began to plan this surprise trip that had surprises along the way.
Surprise #1 Fred and I are sitting on our couch watching the tree lighting in Rockefeller center and I begin to look up the weather for New Orleans to see how heavy of a jacket I will need. Fred asks me to look up the weather for NYC and I say to him, who cares we are not traveling there. WELL, his response, you should care we are going next week! At this point I am speechless and I give him this look of excitement and confusion, hahaha! He starts to explain why we are going and its going to be my Christmas present that will include a shopping spree :).
Surprise #2 One week later, the night before our flight to NYC - Fred asks me if his blue jeans are okay to wear on the flight and I said of course they are silly! He says, well they are not good enough for first class! I pretty much almost shit my pants! I am jumping around and shouting with excitement and jumping on him asking if he is joking, haha! He wasn't joking and we flew first class which was so great because I s felt like a princess.
Surprise #3 We have a driver picking us up from the airport, and I notice that we are driving into lower Manhattan. We pull up to the Trump Soho!!! I am not convinced this is our hotel but then we walk in and check in and then we are standing in our amazing room. I was ashamed to think we would stay any where knowing how Fred does things :).
Surprise #4 The next morning we wake up, head out to the Cupping Room Cafe to grab some grub before heading out to 5th avenue. Breakfast was great and we heading out, we went to tons of different stores, got some good things and headed back to the hotel to get ready for dinner. So obviously I needed like an hour to get dressed, Fred tells me he doesn't feel good so he takes a nap. Once he is up and ready he heads down stairs to make sure our car is here. I am thinking, why does he need to go downstairs, why can't he call? I didn't have time to ask questions, I was concerned with my stupid false eye lashes and wondering why it wasn't staying on, grrr! SO I toss that shit and hear Fred come up like 15 minutes later. I said, why were you down there so long, apparently there was traffic and other shit going on. Finally we head down stairs and Fred said a white car is picking us up and I don't see a white car. We keep walking and we come up to a Chrysler 300 black limo and the driver decides to say, Hi Fred! They shake hands, I am like WTF and he opens the door and says he is ready to go. I ask Fred, is this for us?? As I am giggling because all this is so amazing I can't believe it was real.
Surprise #5 We are heading out to Rockefeller center to check out the tree. The streets are blocked, our driver can't get through so he drops us off and we walk a few blocks. We make a quick turn and there is the tree! Full of magic and life and just being able to be there with my love and watch everyone around us was awesome. He starts to mumble sweet things as to how he is going to start doing things from now. We make this joke of how he really does do so much and then says, 'but I haven't done anything yet' and so I was really happy to hear him say that for himself lol :). Then he begins to ask me what today was, I responded with the normal answer and said it was Saturday. He says, no, what's the date. I say its December 8th, I am thinking I missed something because he never asks me things like this in this type of setting. Then he says, 'yes today is December 8th, many many years ago my grandfather got down on his knee and asked my grandmother to marry him and I would like to do the same and ask you to make me the luckiest man', he got on one knee and asked if I would marry him. And of course I said YES! Omg it was amazing, a beautiful feeling, nothing that I was ever capable of feeling before. Thousands of people cheered and clapped for us, it really was magically. He then introduces to me Conrad, his buddy ol pal who has been following us and snapping pictures of the entire thing! AWESOME! Conrad you are the best! Oh and another thing, Fred bought a new camera and shipped it to Conrad to use for this moment and we got to take it home with us!
Surprise #6 We venture on to find our driver and his elegant limo, we head out to dinner, but first we make a pit stop to (drum roll please) Georgetown Cupcakes!!!!! Oh tthe cupcakes were yummy! Okay so then we proceeded to dinner and as we pull up, Fred tells me how famous this place is because the owner is a chef on the cooking channel. Lidia Bastianich is the owners of Becco - FYI. We go inside to let the hostes know we are her and she says 'oh, you're party is waiting outside'. I'm like what! Who is here! Well, Fred's family drove in from Jersey to spend this day with us! I was way too excited to see everyone! The his mom walks out (she lives in AZ) - he flew her out here AND THEN my brother strolls out and I lost it. I cried like a baby, I couldn't believe my brother was there and that Fred has planned this for so long. It was his dream to visit NYC, so there were 2 dreams in the making.
I am truly and excited, blessed, happy, grateful women. I have the 2 funniest kids and a true man who is not only the peace I feel in my heart but the joy I feel through out the day. There are lots of men out there that can make you happy and say all the right things. But there isn't many who can contribute to the joy and peace in your life.
Everything I have been through, everyone one I have known has brought me to this moment and us together. Thank you to everyone who was a part of it to make that day so spectacular!
Hugs!
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Then and Now
It takes years of emotions,
hurtful words,
lakes of tears,
to understand how to let go.
It takes blind eyes,
a numb heart,
no mirror's,
to be able to stick around.
It takes high walls,
pounds of doubt,
fear in your blood,
to think love isn't really out there.
It takes a stranger's conversation,
the cold hard truth,
understanding,
to be able to know it only gets better.
It takes the right one,
a handful of right choices,
a kiss that changes your life,
to know everything happened for a reason.
hurtful words,
lakes of tears,
to understand how to let go.
It takes blind eyes,
a numb heart,
no mirror's,
to be able to stick around.
It takes high walls,
pounds of doubt,
fear in your blood,
to think love isn't really out there.
It takes a stranger's conversation,
the cold hard truth,
understanding,
to be able to know it only gets better.
It takes the right one,
a handful of right choices,
a kiss that changes your life,
to know everything happened for a reason.
Sunday, October 16, 2011
MARS
I'm learning, at the age of 27, that men really are from Mars. I've learned a few things that raise questions, that make my nose crinkle. As much as men are from Mars, I still have good reason to do and say the things I do.
I'm tempted to go to an old peoples home and question the little old men about the true reasons men spark a circuit when it comes to relationships. But that would require conversation and the only person I want to have a conversation with isn't around.
During a break, that the man chose to take, he tells you to take care of yourself; he tells you live your life like normal...
This doesn't sit too well with me. Why? Well, after years of very serious relationships and lots of doubt about men I know I found a man who gives me something I never had before and I feel incredible when I'm with him.
But did you read what I said? We are on a break. Is this an incredible man? Absolutely. I must stay away from this wonderful man. I cannot text him 'i love you' whenever I want. Most definitely no naughty action. You can only imagine. Can you say nails on a chalkboard? Yes. I can say and did say that.
My body is deprived. As he says to be happy on my own because we have to be happy with ourselves before we can make others happy. Well....I'm happy. I'm allowed to have emotions towards this. Even when I cry, I'm happy still. Men forget we are women. An emotional species. Specially me. Throw sticks and stones, I'm crying so hard the boogers are running so fast they're getting into my mouth. Yeah, I know.
That is gross.
A big part of my happiness was him. I really like the person I am when I'm with him. Cloud 9 does exist people. I'm IN love. What does that mean? That means everything I see in the future includes him. No doubt. Not the band, the emotion. Oh, good you got that.
I refuse to not think of him. Its impossible. What's he doing? Maybe we ate the same thing today. Did he visit Dunkin Donuts (I was not paid to say this)? Are all the notes in his house that I left still there? This isn't half of what my mind goes through. I feel sorry for it. It just thinks about him all day. I mean some of us have lives to live and my mind is just fucking moping and won't snap out of it. I'm forced to drink a large icee from Target, Raspberry Blueberry flavor, to give it a brain freeze. Sheesh!
You know, well maybe you don't, but I also lost my appetite. Just flew out the window. And TRUST me, I can put down some food. I'm a chub in disguise. Its been 6 looooooooong days since I've seen him. Food isn't bringing him home any time soon. I should just hook an IV to my body with liquid food and carry it around. Other women will understand this.
The thing that men do not understand, is that we want our men around. We get sad when you don't want to see us. You say what? Memories? Yeah, there are a ton of those, which makes this not easy at all. And I am sure you men don't get as dramatic as we do, well out loud that is, but I do know you think about us. I still don't know what the hell that means but okay!
I'm happy with or without you. I'm the happiest when I am with you. Jumping for joy and shit. Boys do that to us.
We jump in our closets when you're not looking...
We smile like a 5 year old after he's ate ice cream and has a chocolate ring around his mouth. We do this when you grab our hand.
We get butterflies every single time we meet up.
We wake up in the middle of the night to watch you sleep with your mouth open and drool busting out. We give you kisses on the forehead.
We are girls. We're mushy, romantic, know what we have when we have it.
So I'll wait as long as I can. All things must come to an end eventually. At this point the only this I want to end is this break. BAM!
Men will always be from Mars, and Women will be from Venus, well when we choose too. Haha (its my blog I can say anything I want)!
Let's huddle, break and move to the next play. I MISS YOU!
I'm tempted to go to an old peoples home and question the little old men about the true reasons men spark a circuit when it comes to relationships. But that would require conversation and the only person I want to have a conversation with isn't around.
During a break, that the man chose to take, he tells you to take care of yourself; he tells you live your life like normal...
This doesn't sit too well with me. Why? Well, after years of very serious relationships and lots of doubt about men I know I found a man who gives me something I never had before and I feel incredible when I'm with him.
But did you read what I said? We are on a break. Is this an incredible man? Absolutely. I must stay away from this wonderful man. I cannot text him 'i love you' whenever I want. Most definitely no naughty action. You can only imagine. Can you say nails on a chalkboard? Yes. I can say and did say that.
My body is deprived. As he says to be happy on my own because we have to be happy with ourselves before we can make others happy. Well....I'm happy. I'm allowed to have emotions towards this. Even when I cry, I'm happy still. Men forget we are women. An emotional species. Specially me. Throw sticks and stones, I'm crying so hard the boogers are running so fast they're getting into my mouth. Yeah, I know.
That is gross.
A big part of my happiness was him. I really like the person I am when I'm with him. Cloud 9 does exist people. I'm IN love. What does that mean? That means everything I see in the future includes him. No doubt. Not the band, the emotion. Oh, good you got that.
I refuse to not think of him. Its impossible. What's he doing? Maybe we ate the same thing today. Did he visit Dunkin Donuts (I was not paid to say this)? Are all the notes in his house that I left still there? This isn't half of what my mind goes through. I feel sorry for it. It just thinks about him all day. I mean some of us have lives to live and my mind is just fucking moping and won't snap out of it. I'm forced to drink a large icee from Target, Raspberry Blueberry flavor, to give it a brain freeze. Sheesh!
You know, well maybe you don't, but I also lost my appetite. Just flew out the window. And TRUST me, I can put down some food. I'm a chub in disguise. Its been 6 looooooooong days since I've seen him. Food isn't bringing him home any time soon. I should just hook an IV to my body with liquid food and carry it around. Other women will understand this.
The thing that men do not understand, is that we want our men around. We get sad when you don't want to see us. You say what? Memories? Yeah, there are a ton of those, which makes this not easy at all. And I am sure you men don't get as dramatic as we do, well out loud that is, but I do know you think about us. I still don't know what the hell that means but okay!
I'm happy with or without you. I'm the happiest when I am with you. Jumping for joy and shit. Boys do that to us.
We jump in our closets when you're not looking...
We smile like a 5 year old after he's ate ice cream and has a chocolate ring around his mouth. We do this when you grab our hand.
We get butterflies every single time we meet up.
We wake up in the middle of the night to watch you sleep with your mouth open and drool busting out. We give you kisses on the forehead.
We are girls. We're mushy, romantic, know what we have when we have it.
So I'll wait as long as I can. All things must come to an end eventually. At this point the only this I want to end is this break. BAM!
Men will always be from Mars, and Women will be from Venus, well when we choose too. Haha (its my blog I can say anything I want)!
Let's huddle, break and move to the next play. I MISS YOU!
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Longest Siesta of my Life!
After three long days, I finally stopped crying. I also lost four pounds. Finally fit into that mini vest, no problem! Hooray!
The first night I went to the bar and really played a roll. The drunk girl who became entertaining to all around. Then went home, looked around and decided the only thing that would put me to sleep was John Mayer, but instead he made me cry then I fell asleep.
The second night, I watched a movie I shouldn't of then drank a bottle of wine....alone. I had no problem sleeping. Dinner last night was four small brownies. Well I ate them at lunch time and stayed full the whole day LOL.
The third night, I finally hear we are on a break. Now I am just in denial. Not really, just a little sad.
I'm standing back in the rain.
The first night I went to the bar and really played a roll. The drunk girl who became entertaining to all around. Then went home, looked around and decided the only thing that would put me to sleep was John Mayer, but instead he made me cry then I fell asleep.
The second night, I watched a movie I shouldn't of then drank a bottle of wine....alone. I had no problem sleeping. Dinner last night was four small brownies. Well I ate them at lunch time and stayed full the whole day LOL.
The third night, I finally hear we are on a break. Now I am just in denial. Not really, just a little sad.
I'm standing back in the rain.
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
"Journeys end in lovers meeting."
People who find out they really never loved each other, or know the're love isn't the kind to last, stay together for years. And those who are madly, crazy in love only share a short time together; and then they spend more time trying to move on and convincing themselves it would have never worked.
In one of my favorite movies, someone says, "I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other."
And when I heard this, I immediately thought I know someday I will have the kind of person who wants to love me as much as I want to love them.
I found this person. I truly did. I know I will feel this way about him no matter what.
In one of my favorite movies, someone says, "I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other."
And when I heard this, I immediately thought I know someday I will have the kind of person who wants to love me as much as I want to love them.
I found this person. I truly did. I know I will feel this way about him no matter what.
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